Her.

Short version in English, because I was asked to do so:

I usually do not delete old entries, although they might show an older, long gone „me“.
It’s still a part of me, but should be interpreted carefully.
And: Please do not expect me to write in perfect english. I sometimes use certain words although I know more „correct“ ones in english, but the connotation, the meaning I give these words is strongly influenced by me and by my native tongue. Of course some of the words that seem unfitting to you may also be mistakes – Mea culpa.

Effects > Skills.

Something about me? Hm..
I am carried on by emotions (and anything that causes them), the thirst and search for knowledge and never fading curiosity – hence you shouldn’t expect me to be an extremely unimpulsive person.
I would describe myself as very susceptible to all kinds of true art, expressionism and secrecy – especially myths, mythologies, tales and legends of all cultures have always fascinated me.
At the moment I am studying and very curious how my future will unfold.
Many-sided, impulsive and emotional as I am I try to be creative whenever I am in the right mood, playing the violin or writing – I’m not always succesful.
I try to take life with all the humour I can bring up – and sometimes rest in silent admiring of the beauty it has in store for me.
Languages, etymological origins and developments and the historical/religious movements behind them has become one of my biggest interests.
So-called perfection disgusts me, because it kills amazement – I appreciate the becoming more than the result.
And I tend to encrypt my words more and more for I am not able or willing to put the whole „me“ into them.

Likes:

Balance Ambivalence
What I/we feel
reasons and consequences
waking up, arriving, leaving
satisfaction (not to be confused with permanent healing/rescue)
some philosophy
the so-called „bad“ things
melodies (a/p)
arts
every kind of seduction
sexuality
amazement
insight/perception
nature (sounds pretty worn-out, I know)
despairingly loving
inspiration, impulses
reading, growing, discussions
silence to share with so.
letting go
politics
some history
mythologies
rough beauty (North Sea, Iceland, traditional Japan, some France, some Germany)
the constant struggle, the constant fight – so much despair – but so much bliss as well.

Poetry: P.Neruda – C.B. – E.Fried – H.Hesse – P.Celan – I.Bachmann – Prynne – H.Domin – D.Rajcic – H.Heine,..
Prose: From entertaining to complicated – thriller, historical, some biographies, novels in general;
Texts influenced by the Age of Enlightenment
Morbid, melancholic, dreamy, dry, emotional, encrypted, expressionistic language.

Dislikes:

When masks get confused with character
Perfection in the common sense
Doubting myself. Necessary but painful.